I know I’m losing it when that TikTok video makes me cry.
I know I’m losing it when a sad song comes on and my eyes start to sting.
I know I’m losing it when everything begins to feel like a chore even eating.
I know I’m losing it when I’m no longer taking my meds and just scrolling all day on social media.
I know I’m losing it when I no longer reply my friend’s ‘How are you?’ text.

I know I’m losing it when I’ve cried for hours but it still feels like I haven’t.
I know I’m losing it when I have to pretend to smile to get through the day.
I know I’m losing it when I begin to wonder if I’ve ever been happy.
But most of all, I know I’m losing it when it’s getting harder to hide the self inflicted bruises and I’m just wondering if I should myself out of my misery.